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I'll miss your perfect charming selfishness; I can't say goodbye, say goodbye
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crappified D:

crap lah.
i feel so CRAPPED can.
i mean like, i screwed up ALL my exams lah.
i didnt get a 80% for ANY of them.
not even a 75% lah.
wth wth wth.
i mean like hello, i like TOTALLY screwed maths.
yeah, believe it or not, i actually FAILED.
not by a lot, but still, i FAILED.
like wth mann.
last sem i failed my maths too ):
people you have to understand that maybe my 'screwed' is not equal to your 'screwed'.
like. Me getting a 83/95 for jap total, yeah not bad at all for you, but to me?
IT'S HELL.
i mean like, winnie can get higher than me for written paper can?
& to think i tot i would do well, that jap was my comforter (it was the last paper of the day)
well, YEAH RIGHT.
i didn't even meet my expectations cann.
stupid. felt so dejected.
even more when parents scolded me.
gahhhs. i think that's whats bothering me for the last 2 days.
IDK. i really dunno.
thennns. chinese also screwed it.
paper 1 was TOTALLY screwed.
paper 2 was not that bad lah. but still quite screwed.
english, i screwed my paper 1.
paper 2 was like okay to me cos highest is only 39 and i got 32.
but still, to my parents, it's too low.
at least i didnt screw physics too badly.
I TOTALLY SCREWED CHEM.
sorry, mr fadhir ):
bio was screwed too i guess.
but 2nd worst (worst is maths) was hist lah.
I SCREWED SECTION B SEQ.
i tot that writing abt immigrants would be easier than writing abt founding.
I WAS DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN WRONG.
when cheryl got a 16.5, i got a PATHETIC 8.
i mean like, all my studying (and a bit of tutoring) gone to waste lah D:
stupid. sorry GA i wasted ur efforts ):
i mean like, when everyone else got a 30+, i got like a 28 can.
even cheryl can get 40 lah.
i tot hist would be a bit better lah... guess not.

GRRRRR why am i so dumb lah freaking shit.
IM SO DUMB DUMB DUMB DUMB!
*tears hair out*
GRRR. stupid me. stupid brain. stupid.. GAHH.
i just feel so inferior. so small.
why did i even go to nush. my brain cnt even absorb lah.
answer: i didnt even CHOOSE to be here. im dumb.
stupid lah. grr.
kayy i better end this post before i swear like crazee.
bye ):

9:14 PM  //  Out of the darkness and into the sun


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