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I'll miss your perfect charming selfishness; I can't say goodbye, say goodbye
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common test ><

shit lah i hate common test mannnn.
stupid...
chem + hist tmr, 8-9am, 8-10am.
back-2-back tests.
how GR8, huh?
muggin' muggin' chem now... sighhh.

anywaes,
sigh. wnna drop m post as netball vice-captain.
i really CAN'T commit to the many trainings we have.
esp this time when common tests are just around the corner.
I dunno lah.
i mean like i dunno why i even got chosen for this post.
like i pawn SO many trainings.
Jazlene, Aisyah or Debbie could tak the post what.
whyy meee??

Not that i dun wanna be, just that i can't.
If i don't say it, then i dun do my part, then sooner or later i will be taken off the post.
But it's different.
The longer i stay in this post and i don't commit, i will get scolded, and people will lack of a good vice-captain.
Why should i deprive others of a leader?
A leader should be a responsible person, turning up for every training.
UNLIKE ME.
not like i dun wanna go training.
It's just that i can't.
Talk to my parents lah.
You think i last time nvr try to ask meh?
FYI, i did.
And guess what? they said no.
you tell me to ask somemore.
I stupidly did.
And guess what? They scolded me, accused me of not respecting them.
You think i wanna do that everytime?
Stupidly? I DON'T, okay.
So puhhleez.
Don't you think that It's kinda UNREASONABLE that you actually give me a black face when i told you that i can't go, and that when you ask me to ask again i say no into your face?
TOO BAD if your parents aren't like that.
you won't understand. simple as that. OKAY?
so just STOP blaming me when i like really can't make it.
Like today. almost everyone got common tests and you expect all the year 1s to come?
My parents are really tight on my grades okay?
The fact that i can alr go for friday is like, okay.
If you can go, aisyah and deb can go it's not my problem.
as i said, I DIDN'T ASK TO BECOME TH VICE-CAPT OK.
i really cnt commit.
if you and they can commit the time to go for training, i can't, it's not my fault.
maybe if tmr dun have test i can at least come for a while.
and many more yr 1s will come.
so you will be very happy.
im really gonna drop my post.
PLUS, it's not that I want to talk to CHERYL and that I am disturbing HER.
SHE also WANTS to talk to ME okay?
SO, don't make that the fault.
JUST DON'T SAY THAT YOU ARE DUMB.
BECAUSE IT MAKES OTHER PEOPLE THAT ARE LESS SMART THEN YOU FEEL EVEN DUMBER.



glad that ALL of that is out of my mind.
wanted to say that out loud.
hehehe ;D
good luck for common tests anywaes NUSH!

<3ing you loads MEL!
best frens forever (:
sisters forever (:
P.S. got new cute guys have to tell me horhs (:

9:18 PM  //  Out of the darkness and into the sun


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