like melody and harmony in love;
Colors, Melody and Harmony - Jaejoong + Yoochun (DBSK)
sigh.
just screwed my jap oral, although i seem fine to everyone, im not.
bloodyhell.
like what?
i passed 3 TESTS IN A ROW within 5 marks of passing.
bloodyhell, i cant stand it k.
why the heck am i screwing up big time?
i dont even know.
i know i should like slap myself and strap my com somewhere i cant get it.
i know i should stop chionging my work in as little time as possible just to get on my com.
i know i should stop wasting my time icon-ing and chatting online.
i know i should stop being such a wastrel.
i know i should stop bloody SLACKING.
but i cant stop, bloodyhell.
what, first maths test, chinese test, chem test, now jap oral?!
i bloody DO NOT NEED anything else ok.
damn you rania, STUDY LA, BLOODYHELL.
but on the other hand, i have reasons why i do what i do.
my life online is 75% more enjoyable than my real life.
you know why?
i dont screw up.
i dont make people pissed.
i dont lose trust in people.
i dont let people lose trust in me.
i never feel sad when im online.
i never think about things i dont like.
i always become less/not emo after being online.
i can be there for people, although not physically.
i can be people's support, although i dont know them personally.
i actually have a place in their world, even if it's only online.
i actually mean something to them, and they miss me.
i can enjoy my time there.
i dont feel stressed.
and this list can go on and on.
it'll never end, really.
and another thing, i really feel so alone.
he was there when i needed him.
now that he's gone, what can i do.
xuan, kor, they have their own lives, seperated from mine.
mel too.
besides them, no offense to anyone, but, i dont have anyone i really trust.
no one to rely on.
so please, anyone, if you think my fandom-ing is crazy.
i really appreciate it because my oppas somehow give me security.
be it just posing in a picture.
you might not understand it.
but it does help.
sigh, i have to really clear up my mess and work doubly hard.
rania hwaiting~!
and to quote gemmi: put on a brave smile for hae and smileeeeeeeeeeeeeee
haha, ok dongsaengie, FOR HAE.
thank you oppa, for being there.
even though you're never actually with me.
really.
FOR YOU, i will smile and move on bravely.
thanks for recharging my batteries everytime, oppa.
thank you :)
5:19 PM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
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like melody and harmony in love;
Colors, Melody and Harmony - Jaejoong + Yoochun (DBSK)
sigh.
just screwed my jap oral, although i seem fine to everyone, im not.
bloodyhell.
like what?
i passed 3 TESTS IN A ROW within 5 marks of passing.
bloodyhell, i cant stand it k.
why the heck am i screwing up big time?
i dont even know.
i know i should like slap myself and strap my com somewhere i cant get it.
i know i should stop chionging my work in as little time as possible just to get on my com.
i know i should stop wasting my time icon-ing and chatting online.
i know i should stop being such a wastrel.
i know i should stop bloody SLACKING.
but i cant stop, bloodyhell.
what, first maths test, chinese test, chem test, now jap oral?!
i bloody DO NOT NEED anything else ok.
damn you rania, STUDY LA, BLOODYHELL.
but on the other hand, i have reasons why i do what i do.
my life online is 75% more enjoyable than my real life.
you know why?
i dont screw up.
i dont make people pissed.
i dont lose trust in people.
i dont let people lose trust in me.
i never feel sad when im online.
i never think about things i dont like.
i always become less/not emo after being online.
i can be there for people, although not physically.
i can be people's support, although i dont know them personally.
i actually have a place in their world, even if it's only online.
i actually mean something to them, and they miss me.
i can enjoy my time there.
i dont feel stressed.
and this list can go on and on.
it'll never end, really.
and another thing, i really feel so alone.
he was there when i needed him.
now that he's gone, what can i do.
xuan, kor, they have their own lives, seperated from mine.
mel too.
besides them, no offense to anyone, but, i dont have anyone i really trust.
no one to rely on.
so please, anyone, if you think my fandom-ing is crazy.
i really appreciate it because my oppas somehow give me security.
be it just posing in a picture.
you might not understand it.
but it does help.
sigh, i have to really clear up my mess and work doubly hard.
rania hwaiting~!
and to quote gemmi: put on a brave smile for hae and smileeeeeeeeeeeeeee
haha, ok dongsaengie, FOR HAE.
thank you oppa, for being there.
even though you're never actually with me.
really.
FOR YOU, i will smile and move on bravely.
thanks for recharging my batteries everytime, oppa.
thank you :)
5:19 PM //
I'll miss your every moment